Have you ever been so afraid by the thought of showing your entire body to someone you care deeply about?
Have you ever thought that that one person will not love you because of the way your body looks? These thoughts continuously linger in my mind. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to go that ‘extra step’ with someone- to totally uncover yourself and reveal your body to that one person you have feelings for. I cannot imagine myself to ever baring my body to someone, even if it’s someone I love.
I’m self-conscious. I have many parts on my body that are out of place and skin that is nowhere near perfect. My stomach isn’t what you’d call flat and I have thighs that are as big as tree trunks. So, you could say that I hate my body. I can’t even stand to look at my bare body in the mirror and the thought of someone else witnessing my body in such a state…it scares me a lot.
Hence, the thoughts run through my mind once again. Yes, it’s true that if someone loved me a lot, they wouldn’t care at all for what I looked like. But, nonetheless these thoughts do run through my mind and I can’t help to think otherwise- besides, this is who I am. This is my body.